Heart...

It had been so many years now

But you never understood

That, you are a dumbo

You know why, because you are always proved wrong

Whatever you think or see

You always trust it

And believe that, its true

But it had not always been

Sometimes it seems, as if

You are just like a sweet kid

Or a little angel amidst the odds

Who even, didn't care

Whenever u considers yourself

You treat life as of a decade ago

But when it comes for others

Time on its own, run fast forward

Even though, most of the people

Had taken you for granted and cheated you

But you are so innocent

That you forgot everything and smiled again

You never blamed others

For whatever they did

And had always remained calm by

Showing that nothing had happened

Your trueness was stolen by many

And had been understood as weakness

That’s why people escaped out easily

Leaving you empty and vacant

But dear little, don’t worry  

It will make you strong and wise 

And will let you

More close to your self                

Oh my dear dumbo heart

Now I don’t want you to understand

About anything and anyone

Be you, only you, as always you are.

Retired...

He was strolling slowly

With sunken eyes

For a long journey

Which is, yet to be covered

Looking very far

Astonishingly

He slowed down

During the turns

He was trembling

With  some abrupt fears

Fear of hurdles

And Fear of age

With every step

He took ahead

He was brooding very hard

And felt fear of death

Looking at him

First, I thought

He was not in a mood

And had a bad day

But, gazing towards earth

With a drooped face

His wet eyes were

saying that am retired today.

Reality...

He said, she denied
He was empty, she was regretful
He was begging, she was praying
He was tearful, she was crying

He was before, she was after
He was hoping, she was mourning
He couldn't stop, she couldn't move
He was mad, she was sad

He wants to watch, she wants to hide
Everything in LOVE
Which is neither a dream
Nor a reality.


 

Insecure...

I was falling for you

Was waiting to elite

Amidst the good and bad

Between the Crest and trough

Yet you wasn’t sure

Don’t know, why

But, At that point

I don’t wanna lose you

I beg for something

That something called love

You were rich with that

But surely was insecure.

As Of Yours...

Amidst the crowd, of millions

Between the lines, of nuances

I had seen you fighting

For simplicity and innocence

As a traveler along those roads

I had tried to be your companion

But whenever I tried

Got flunked and remarked

I know, I was lacking somewhere

And want to improve at a point

The only  point , where my thoughts  are clear

But not pure, As Of Yours.

जिंदगी की दौड़...

जिंदगी की दौड़ मे

एक हाथ ढूँढने चले 

रास्ते सबके थे अलग 

फिर भी साथ ढूँढने चले 

कुछ जल्दी थी सबको जाने की 

मंजिल को जो पाना था

सही और गलत के अंतर से

दूर जो सबको जाना था 

कोशिश मे साथ निभाने की

सब पास आते गए 

मंजिले थी अलग अलग

पर साथ साथ जाते गए |

Lopsided...

First, we met
Then talk
And laugh

Then curious
And happy

Then misapprehensions
And worries

Then possessiveness
And fights

Then crying
And depression

Then Ending
And now, life seems lopsided.

Bathing...

I was scared

And alone

I was silent

And fearful

I was waiting

And trembling

I was cold

And thoughtless

Life was meandering

And I was lost

I need something

Which can calm

 It was raining

And I was bathing

As a crying ally of sky

Because I know  the pain of loneliness.

याद तुम आ रहे बहुत |

एक साथ का वादा तो

वो सितारे भी निभा रहे है 

जो हर रात रोशनी ओड़े 

मुझ पर छा रहे है |

बस तुम हो की 

न जाने कहा छुप गए हो 

वादा करके दोस्ती का 

भीड़ मे कही दुक गए हो |

आजाओ सामने, की 

बात ये ठीक नहीं 

चले गए तुम दूर कहाँ 

मै तो आज भी खड़ी यहीं |

झुकी है पलके 

आंसू आज बह रहे बहुत 

आज है ख़ुशी का दिन  

की, याद तुम आ रहे बहुत |

Friends...

I wished to fly

And you became my feathers

Whenever, I want to flow

You were all around like zephyr

Even though, I don’t speak much

Yet you understand everything through my eyes

Those times, when I felt low

You were always there to hold me

We used to fought on petty things

But always ended up laughing

Anywhere, I failed

You were there to celebrate

Sometimes, life seemed uneasy

But you protected me from all

Now, recalling every little thing, I feel proud that

We are not lovers, but actually, FRIENDS.

Balloon...

I want to fly

Fly high like balloon

Being light and colorful

Want to move along sky

Am not a bird

With wings and feathers

And don’t wanna have something

Which when broken, will leave me with tears

Being a living being

I have to care about emotions

Even being kind, sometimes it hurts

So, why to have a messy heart

Will be ok to be a balloon

So if anybody will hurt

Only air will come out

Leaving no tears and pain inside.

Little Divine...

In the meandering

Path of life

My little dear heart

Your shine always rife

You are neither dubious

Nor holding anything bad

You are true with deeds

So, there is nothing to afraid

You behaved calm in crowd

And have equal faces for all

My mind might be calculative

But you behold it during fall

Reflecting only colors of love

You are crystal like pristine

Didn’t searched god anywhere

As you always acted little divine.

Give him some time...

I was astonished to see

Fallen hearts on ground

Which were thrown by

The victims of betrayal

Those hearts were tored up

Were played like toys

Were broken down badly

And were left to die out

They were filled with sadness

And the agony of loneliness

Which made the pain unbearable

So were detached apart

But, I collected them softly

Gathered all, And told them

That they are not alone

There are, so many alike

There is a beautiful life behind

Which can be revived back

Just, Trust the almighty

And give him some time.

Wanting...

Its wanting or greed

Why I am still in prison

Of your thoughts

Even you had let me freed

                    

You will never gonna speak

That you want me back

But you don’t know that

These thoughts letting me weak

I wanna come out

I want to detach now

But something had

Bounded me near about

At least you could have told

The way you feel

I wanna know about

The wanting still unfold.

Ordinary...

Ordinary faced kid

As every child is special

I too look cute.

My little cute...

My little cute, Supu

You, the only alive Angel 

Who loved me unconditionally 

You never imposed 

Any burden and conditions

And didn't expected any returns   

You never hated me

For any misbehavior or

Any wrong doings

You didn’t scolded me

For any failures

And rejections

You never parted me

For my religion, color

And creeds

You never looked over

My face, lifestyle or

Any differences

You neither made my fun

Nor interfered or contributed

To my sufferings

You never have any problem

Whether I love somebody else

Or only you

You never knew

How cute you are, but I know

You are the cutest one

We both did’t knew that

Either I was your kid

Or you were mine

But only thing I know is

You are a purest soul

And am proud being a part of your life. 

P.S.-  Supu is a real kitten, who used to reside at my previous home, we left there one year earlier and i miss her a lot.

मै और वो ...

एक शाम सुहानी आई है

कुछ याद पुरानी लाई है 

एक कहानी आज सुनाती हू

कुछ बातें आज बताती हू 

मै बिना विचारे बोलती थी 

वो सुन के सोचा करता था 

मै गीत पुराने गाती थी 

वो मुझ पर गीत बनाता था 

मै बच्चो के संग खेलती थी 

वो टोलियाँ ढून्ढ के लाता था 

मै तितली सी इठलाती थी 

वो मुझे देख मुस्काता था 

मै बारिश मे झूमती गाती थी 

वो बादल पास बुलाता था 

मै सीपियाँ खोजती रहती थी 

वो रेत के घर बनाता था 

मै फूल गुलाबी चाहती थी

वो फूल गुलाब के लाता था 

मै कांच की चूड़ियाँ खनकाती थी 

वो हर रंग की चूड़ियाँ लाता था 

मै ज़िन्दगी मे खुशियाँ ढूँढती थी 
वो मुझ मे ज़िन्दगी देखता था |

Black and White...

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Yesterday, I met a fairy

She was looking stunningly beautiful

But to offer her, I only had a question

Which am carrying, Since childhood

I asked her, Dear fairy

You have all magical powers

And you are so beautiful

Why you are always seen in white?

She smiled softly 

And with all kindness and love

She replied

I can’t paint myself colorful

When your eyes are black and white.

Neither Nor...

Neither he was cheating

Nor she was trusting

Here was the breach

Neither he was close

Nor she was far

Distance changes with time

Neither he was moving

Nor she was stagnant 

Life slowly passed aside 

Neither he was accepting

Nor she was avoiding  

The problem was the same

Neither he was initiating

Nor she was responding

The days passed blankly

Neither he was willing

Nor she was leaving

Situations made them hard

Neither he wanted to hold

Nor she wanted to give up

Something bounded them together

Neither they were lovers

Nor were the friends

The relation was Empyrean. 

Depression...

I entered his room and called him up

To come outside, It’s raining here

But to him, nothing matters much

And rain was a fear

He was hiding himself

Alone in the room

With a decrepit heart

As just had gone through doom

He was touching and reading

Some letters again and again

The letters from past

Reflecting his love and pain

Around him, I had seen

Some empty bottles of beer

He tried them, with heavy heart

When missing someone near

On his left hand

He had some marks of cuts by knife

Which were revealing the truth

That he was tired of his life  

I came out, blank from there

Remembering, how funky he was

Who used to made everyone cheerful 

  With his chirpy talks and crass

It is what love had returned him

A Gift  of misery’s possession

Letting a lively sweet boy

Into death of depression.